20 Apr

School and Bad Parents

School and Bad Parents

My dream last night was pretty simple, but sad.

I was young, I guess. I was in school, but never was able to make it on time, or seem to attend class. I was overwhelmed, and all over the place. I decided to not go home at one point to see if my parents would care, because they were treating me so poorly. I slept at school in my son's speech teacher's room.

My parents didn't text me, or look for me. I knew they wouldn't. They would just wait for me to come home to be punished, and they did. My grandma brought me home, and watched them confront me. They were absolutely cruel, and my grandma was floored. I let loose on my parents about how awful of people they are. My grandma still thought I should maintain a relationship with them, and finish school. I didn't know how I was going to do that. I needed to find a job to support myself. I ended up driving around again in the dark. Somehow I met up with one of my old friends I used to have, and she was in my car. Right before I woke up I had let her drive, because I was unable to see in the dark, and was lost.

I am unsure what these symbols mean, but I wish I'd figure them out, because they keep coming up. I am always going to school in my dreams, but am late, or never show up due to being overwhelmed, or too anxious to go.

Maybe I have yet to let go of that feeling long ago, and need closure. Could be life demands currently seem like how I felt then.

Additional info: I am not in school currently, and have not been for over 20 years, and my parents really are the way my dream portrays them.


 

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  • Maria Carla Cernuto
    DreamsCloud
    Professional Reflector

    Maria Carla Cernuto

    Posted on Apr 21, 2017

    Hi Shawna! If this were my dream I would associate being younger than in waking with feeling vulnerable, immature or dependent. Alternately, I would think being young may represent a newly emerging aspect of myself or fresh phase in my life that is developing. I would imagine my dream may be speaking about learning some life lesson now that feels similar to when I was in school and lived with my parents - perhaps I may feel I am learning how to better communicate my needs or emotions (speech classroom). I would consider the ways I feel overwhelmed, confused, out of control, or feel I have lost my "drive" (ambition) or ability to navigate my life's direction (no longer the driver). I would ask myself, "How may I feel ready to ask for assistance or support? How might learning a new skill help me to feel more in control of my life's direction?"


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    • Shawna

      Shawna

      Posted on Apr 22, 2017

      Thank you for your comments Maria. Yes, I think you might be onto something with the vulnerability, and inability to communicate my needs, or find a way to move forward. I am currently extremly overwhelmed with taking care of my profoundly disabled son, and can't seem to find any help, no matter how many avenues I take it always leads to dead ends.


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        • Maria Carla Cernuto
          DreamsCloud
          Professional Reflector

          Maria Carla Cernuto

          Posted on Apr 23, 2017

          You're welcome. Your self-reflection is very good with respect to connecting waking life challenges to my reflection by describing these obstacles with driving terms, i.e. "avenues" and "dead-ends." I would consider incubating dreams for guidance, asking something to the effect of, "I seek guidance from my dreams to help me find the support and assistance I need to care for my son" or "I call upon my dream guides to lead me to the path that will most benefit my son and I." All the best to you and your son, wishing you strength and sending you positive energy!


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